I once was lost but now am found

First post of the new year. The new year signifies a new beginning. May confusion be cleared by purpose, doubt be vanquished by confidence, and melancholy displaced by mirth.

Glad that the procedural has finally given way to the substantive. Attending all sessions, asking questions, penning notes down, displaying interest and curiosity, saying the correct things. All these amount to nothing in my mind's eye. Belief has to be substantive. I am fortunate to have someone who patiently went through everything with me and helped me reaffirm what I believe. The feeble defenses that my excuses put up never had a chance against the relentless onslaught of the logic. One by one, they went down, leaving me to face what I had been denying and delaying all along. The inevitable took place yesterday night, just before the clock (in my case, it was a metal fork striking a big pot) struck twelve, bringing to an end a tumultuous year for me.

Am not in the habit of setting New Year resolutions. Always believed that actions speak for themselves. There is no point coming up with a long to-do list and not doing anything. If one has the determination to achieve the goals set, lists are superfluous. Have in mind what to accomplish and do it to the best of our abilities.